In 30 minutes will be 13th November and it means that it’ll be my 13th day in Tel Aviv , Israel. I’m really in love with Tel Aviv. This city is always busy and alive. It reminds me Berlin and I really love Berlin. Berlin is just more Budget Version haha. I love the vibe of Tel Aviv, it’s the city where I’d really love to live. And I can tell you that I’ve done some traveling before and no matter where I was, I missed my home and city , wanted to go back.. here I don’t want to fly back to my city.
So, recently I was thinking about past. And especially about past relationships. I finally let everything go. I don’t need any reminders of them and especially any hopes. I had hopes even after 4 years! How dumb it’s. I had not one relationships and of course I learned something from them, but I don’t want to remember about these people.
Speaking of relationships, I’m so young and I already had so many dramas and useless people that sometimes I feel older. I don’t regret about it , it’s my life and experience. But I learned some good things , maybe in other posts I’ll share it..
I met one guy last week. We go out , but it’s his last week in Tel Aviv. It’s kinda sad cause he’s interesting person and I don’t have any other friends here. Of course i can make new friends but here everything depends from luck. You can meet 20 people and with no one you’ll «match» . You never know..
Do you know how I met that guy? For me tinder and Couchsurfing don’t work here. I use old fashioned ways. I just told «Hi» to him in the street. You see, such way sometimes works.
And one more thing. I enjoy this moment while Im writing this post. I enjoy every moment of my life, I’m alive now. I’m grateful for everything. I love my family and what I do for living.
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10 mins to 13 November ,2018
Tel Aviv, Israel
Hey everyone. I’m not sure if someone will even read this because I don’t promote my blog anywhere so it’s like my web diary. In this blogpost I’d like to share some advice which I wish I could have given myself before.
1. Being adult means being responsible for yourself. Take care of yourself. Think what you’re doing , to think which consequences can be.
2. No one has the right to bully or insult me. Before I was shy about standing for myself. Now I’m not at all, speech is powerful weapon. I value myself!
3. I’m beautiful and everything in my appearance and body is amazing. I never want to worry about it again.
4. Money can come and can go. Don’t panic if the amount of money saved seems low
5. Friends drink with you, family brings water when you’re hungover. Remember it. Set priorities correctly !
6. Who partied and had dates with you, had only fun. Don’t get your hopes up. When everyone’s drunk or want you they always love you and want to protect you. But only before they’re sober:)
7. Never say never. Everything changes. Your opinion and feelings aren’t absolute truths.
8. I always mess up.. mess up without regrets haha.
9. Don’t try to change on purpose — it’s hard. Life and people will change your at the right time.
10. You’ll love and «suffer» from love more than once — don’t think that without that person you can’t live. You’ll live, you will.
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22 August 2018
Everything in my life happens randomly! I never scold myself for something what I’ve done accidentally. My accidents knew better than me how and when to happen. I never control my impulses, if I want — I do.
Had a nice day today. Didn’t go to classes cause they’re boring , however met one person and we had so many interesting things to talk about. I enjoy such deep conversations. I wasn’t planning the meeting, it happened very randomly. All random things, people which happen in my life are usually picturesque. I feel lucky, it’s like something holding my hand and pointing where to go, and I always end up in something interesting and I’m happy about it.
Maybe I should change such lifestyle? Can people change? It’s kind of a mystery. Sometimes I get in these moods and get all amped to do nothing wrong, be all healthy, think long-term, logical. Make rational, boring decisions on the road to SUCCESS! Then the next day I’m back to my normal ‘Fun World’ paradigm. Do we strive to be better? Or do we just enjoy the ride and go with the flow? Can there be a balance?
Tell me this. If one guy lives his life eating bagels and cream cheese with coffee and cream every morning and he’s happy BUT he has a dad bod and dies of a heart attack at 60, and there’s another guy who eats healthy but he’s a little less happy because he can’t eat bagels and people also automatically assume he’s a douche because of his six-pack and he dies at say 80 (wow nice 20 more years of being old!) Which is better? I think about this stuff.
12 20 am
There’s this thing, like a pebble in my shoe, a thorn in the brain so to speak, that’s always pestering me, always telling me to write.As cheesy as that sounds, here I am. I’m so happy for the 20-30 of you that read this blog. That’s flattering.
I was overthinking my life these days. As always haha. I’ve been losing my precious time on pointless people and things. I’ll give some examples. I kept in touch with one guy. He could always meet up only at that time when I had rehearsals. So, what did I? Skipped dance classes, in order to see and spend time with that guy. What’s the conclusion? I haven’t grown professionally in dancing. That’s sad. So, what about the guy? I don’t even know where he’s now. Yet another example is that I was admitted to participate in Technovation tournament, where you need to have coding and programming skills. I was thinking about it, because it’s worldwide famous championship blah blah. However, I ended up at right decision.
Here’s my advice. Always ask yourself: «Do you need it?» So, I asked myself. Do I want to do programming in future, is it my niche, do I really want to do it? Both answers were no. The correct answer is: I can spend this time on something more important to me such as college, practicing dance, studying German.
The question «Do I need it?» Work with people as well. Every time you wonder if you want to date that girl/guy or not, do you have future with this person, feelings? The answer here is very clear. Yes or No. There are no other options.
Life can be black and white. You can be only hot or cold, you can date or not date, you can do it or not. Learn to define what’s important for you, what do YOU want. Once you’ve found answers to these questions — set priorities. And then begin to live the life you actually want.
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The longer you go without working out, the less tone you get, the more weight you gain, the less likely you’ll start working out again.
The longer you go without studying or reading, the more anxious you get about it, the less likely you’ll start read or study. Same dilemma.
Then suddenly, out of chance, you get home one day in all your automation, and you happen to eat more than one or two cookies, not realizing it would put you in a deep 6-hour sugar crash.
You wake up on the couch. The TV’s on. It’s 5am. You turn the TV off and you sit there. You feel a little groggy, but something’s different. You care. Sandwiches? No. Today let’s try eggs and veggies. No bread, No sugar. Let’s write down some goals. Let’s do some crunches. Take a shower. Clean up the apartment. Why now? Who knows. It’s just the motion of the universe I guess. Over-analyzing it won’t get you anywhere either. That kind of thinking will put you back down the rabbit hole. Today, you care.
Maybe I’ll stick with it this time. Boiled eggs, black beans, peas & carrots, green tea. 60 crunches. Don’t skip any dance rehearsals. Jump rope until I’m sweating. Hop in the shower. Sit down on a chair and wait. Wait until it comes. Then do studying and write.
Saturday’s will be cheat day, because “Shabbat”. It’s Jewish day off. Or maybe Tuesday? A lot of things are cheaper on Tuesdays, the movies? Tuesday’s will be filled with Soda, Candies, Mcdonald’s, and all the other poisonous things you can think of. Complete freedom and debauchery.
Then back to structure. Discipline. Self-control. Self-awareness.
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