Life update | Israel

It’s been a week since I’m in Israel. I remember long time ago, when it was my dream to go to Israel and to live there for a while. However, not the most pleasant news brought me here, which I want to keep in private.

Tel Aviv is amazing city and I like being here. People are so friendly, cafes and bars are very good both service and food/drinks. What I enjoy here is working out outdoors and running at beachfront. Maybe next post will be comparison between Tel Aviv and Almaty.

My trip here is very random. I can’t tell if it’s good, because in Almaty I had a lot of projects which I miss now. In November I planned at least 3 performances (who don’t remember, I’m dancer). I had role in performance with my dance group, but I won’t be able to do it, so received message that they found amazingly talented and perfect girl instead of me for this role aren’t the most cheering news.. Also planned two solos which were already ready for stage and now I get out of dance shape. Well, I at least do workout and ballet class with ballet music in my AirPods in outdoor workout park where everyone stares at me like I’m weirdo lol.

Now some more personal observations about Israel: 1. Public transport works amazing 2. Jewish guys are very different from European and central Asian guys with their behavior. I guess I can tell bigger overview about them later , when I’ll get more experience haha.

Anyway, I don’t know when I’m back.

Very soon, I promise .

Yulia

Israel, Tel Aviv

9:45 pm

He was the one

Once, for a single moment the whole country was shocked. Shocked by cruelty with which the nations favourite person was killed, a handsome guy, talented, bright, successful and young. The true love and pride of all Kazakhstan.

The price of life of the Olympic champion in a country blessed with huge oil wealth, was negligible — two auto mirrors. The knife of the bastard interrupted such a beautiful and bright life. In the afternoon, downtown Almaty.

They killed not just a man, they killed the pride of the country, its hope, sincere love. They killed a man who became an Olympic prize-winner, thanks to his diligence, talent and perseverance. Who glorified Kazakhstan, becoming the only athlete in the history of the country to win medals in the Olympic Games, World Championships and Continental Championship

In his 25 years he did so much to popularize Kazakhstan as all state institutions combined failed to do. It is impossible to describe the depth of our grief. It is difficult to find a brighter spark among modern Kazakhstanis; a man whom the entire people would equally sincerely and selflessly love

For a huge talent, charisma, intelligence, spiritual purity. Only with the death of such people you realize how much we have lost, just like in an instant, an entire people can become orphaned in one hour.

Kazakhstan is the second country in terms of uranium reserves, the 19th in terms of gas reserves, and the 12th in terms of oil reserves. This is the country whose capital hosts negotiations for the reconciliation in Syria, and in the southern capital, people kill the Olympic chamption for auto-mirrors. Denis, you did more than anyone else for a country that did not protect you! Forgive us, Champion!

Cult of virginity in Kazakhstan

 

Had a discussion with my friend today, she was talking about her boyfriend’s psychology. He told her that guys prefer to wed younger girls because they are less “damaged” and have fewer life experiences. I was annoyed by this. What does it mean less damaged girl? What does mean “take for marriage?” Am I just an object, like food? Why do guys view girls as something they can own or pick?

“Husband killed his with after wedding when he found out that she’s not a virgin”, “Husband kicked out wife when he found out she wasn’t a virgin” that’s something I see in Kazakh news pretty often. Why is it even happening? – I think to myself. Isn’t Kazakhstan a modern country? We had EXPO fair, we have skyscrapers, we have modern technologies, we have everything a person needs in the 21st century…but we also have a deep and underlying conservative mentality.

I remember having a conversation with random girl I met on my friend’s birthday party. Are you virgin? Asks me the girl. I’m telling her that this question doesn’t make any sense. However, this answer wasn’t enough for her, because she’s started telling her pointless crap: “I’ll get married being virgin, I’ll be clear for my husband, that’s how Kazakh girls must be, I won’t disgrace my family…” Oh. This sounds sad. “Do Kazakh girls have lawbook regarding how to live.? Will her husband also be a virgin.?” What’s the benefit of being a virgin? Ramblings started to appear in my mind. I answered her: “You swallow ‘indisputable’ facts, such as the notion of ‘honor and purity’ without question, and therefore without analyzing”. Also, you will never feel the taste of this beautiful and diverse life. You are compelled to swallow these «facts» by force. The world goes beyond the boundaries of your notion of «good» and «bad.» Girls are not divided into «whores» and «dignified». Everything is much broader and more versatile, and if you do not destroy your boundaries (or rather not yours, but those that are socially imposed), you will live your life in closed, dark and depressing circumstances. There hasn’t been any such law in KZ constitution that you must remain a virgin for some time.

She stared at me. Maybe she didn’t understand the meaning of my words. Then she told that there’s something wrong with me, and I’ll regret it. However, I never learned what it is I will regret because she moved away somewhere, to talk with someone else. I felt sorry for her after our conversation and I think she felt sorry for me. Who was right?

By the way did you know that one of the most popular surgery in Kazakhstan is the restoration of virginity?

Thanks for reading

Fiona Edwards

1 am

Almaty, Kazakhstan